I have started shouting on a regular basis these days. I loose my temper very easily and I am frustrated most of the time and that too for no good reason. I fail to understand the reason for this strange behavior of mine. I should be happy. I have everything in life then what is the reason for this incompleteness in me? I have been asking the same question to myself again and again. I know there are lots of things to achieve but getting anger won’t get me anywhere.
I need work on my anger. Whenever I get some negative feelings in my mind I start taking long deep breathes. Believe me it helps. It is simple, the moment you feel like abusing anyone, jealous, beating anyone, or think that you are superior then close your eyes and take long breathes. Try to think of nothing. In couple of minutes mind feels relaxed. It is just like restarting your computer when it starts running slow. It works for me sometimes but its only temporary relief. I need to figure out the root cause for this problem. May be it is because of the routine mundane life or something bothering me deep inside.
Today in the morning I was so angry and frustrated that I felt like leaving office and take a long break. I wanted to go to mountain and live a life of a "Saathu", but that is running away and I won't do it. I am feeling better now but I guess something is still troubling me.
