Make 2013 Awesome for You

People close to me know that I am always trying new things. I was overwhelmed with so much of work that I decided to disable comments on the blog of mine. I was not receiving tons of comments, just few of them but there were lot of spam comments that were going in the approval queue, it was really difficult for me to find time to scan them. Thats why I decided to disable comments completely. But today on 1st Jan 2013 the comments on my blog are officially open again.

I have been doing lot of thinking recently about the future of this blog. Lot of people who know me well complain that I write good but I don’t have a focus in my writings. They are absolutely right. This blog has been a place where I pen down all my frustrations and feelings. For so many years I am writing but never really gave a serious thought on helping others through this blog. I think if I try a little bit and spend some dedicated time then I feel I can write something useful and others might find interest in it.

Can I really help others through this blog?

Yes definitely. I can share my journey so far as an entrepreneur. I have failed many times before and have tried lot of things in the last 10 years but now in 2013 I think I am successful in establishing a decent company and achieving a steady income. We don’t have a very big team right now but we are planning to scale up little bit this year. Our 2013 target is to increase our team size to 10. Currently we are 5 people strong. Growing team is something I am always cautious of. It is very difficult to find ambitious people but I am glad I found few which are working with me right now and are equally passionate.

I can definitely help other by sharing my mistakes, learning and what problems I faced in crossing some common hurdles. I think many people want to start their venture but for some reason or other just can’t. Either they can’t find enough time along with their job or they can’t find the right partner. There are many blocking things but believe me nothing can stop you if you really want to achieve something in your life. In my case I was determined to never give up. When you fail once or twice your parents might not support you emotionally which could be setback for you but the key is to keep going on. Never let anyone stop you. Indian parents are always protective about their children’s career. They want us to work in well established firms for whole life, in that case it is wise if you start doing little something along with your current job. In my opinion even if you give just 1 hour everyday to whatever new you want to start then it is good enough to start. I will share specific tips on how I find time for doing little extra. Even now my day is full with different activities but I can always find time for doing something interesting or new.

In some way this blog is my bread and butter

When I look back I can easily figure out that I have received (and still do) so many project inquiries from this blog only. Most of my big projects are those which I got from this site. It is funny that our official website sparxsys.com has not been the number 1 source of new projects. I think that’s because this is very old blog and has good ranking on Google. So this is another good reason why I should be focusing on this blog now. I want more projects for my company.

I will be writing in Positive Tone now. Promise.

When I look back at the posts I used to write 5 years back I see lot of anger, disappointment and frustration in my writings which is good I believe that I was writing back then when I was struggling with my startup. Things are not rosy these days either but I know that being in negative state of mind won’t help. If it ain’t good then it is experience and learning! So now I promise that I will write very positive.

Little Improvements in the site for easy viewing

I have also made it easy for everyone to view the blog posts on the site easily. I have increased the font size a little bit, increased the line height too and most importantly I have decreased the width of the page. It should be pretty easy to read content now I guess. If not do let me know by writing the comments.

I hope this year I will be able to help others. May be this blog can give them some guidance or emotional support. I am not trying to become any sort of a guru. Just going to share my learning so that others can benefit from it.

Have fun guys and very happy new year.

Me Me Me

I am going to start writing about everything that has ever occurred in my life so far. I know nobody really cares about it but I am writing because I just want to understand myself better. I really a confused personality and every now and then I feel that I am not really going anywhere in life. Something always bothers me inside, don't really know right now what it is but there is surely something deep inside me that keeps me pulling back and wont let me free. I want to find out why. Everything is alright in my life but just there is something bothering me all the time. It is not letting me what I want to be always i.e. HAPPY. Yes I think this is one of the most important goal for every human being and mine also. I want to by happy but at the same time I also want everyday of my life to be perfect and full of happiness without any hassles. I really long for such days when there is no tension in my life. I know tensions will stay with you but it is how you deal with them that matter. I just feel I am not able to cop up and this has been the case for so many years now. There is something I really want to do but I dont know what. There is some place that I want go but dont know where. Everyone should have a meaningful life and I also want to find the true purpose of my life.

So I am going to start writing down from the earliest memories of my life. I will be completely honest with my thoughts and feelings. This will help me to sort out tangled things in my mind. Want to write it doing on my blog so that I stay honest and open. May be someone is reading my blog and might be interested, I dont really care about anyone. I am very selffish I think. I disabled comments recently on my blog because I just dont want anyone else's opinion. It is just too much noise for me. I will write for myself.

2012 Year End Update

I am not really a good writer or blogger, this blog of mine has lot of posts related to different things around my life. Most of it is on Drupal which is my bread n butter and on Delhi which is my home. Rest of the blog has stupid stuff and the whole blog if unorganized. I think sometimes that I should work on making this blog focussed on few topics only but then I feel that I prefer it to be unorganized. This is my space where I can write whatever I feel and let everything out. Just like a daily journal. I feel bad that I can't write everyday but anyways I write whenever I can.

I havent really written what is happening in my life recently. Though facebook and twitter is one place where I usually post non sense stuff everyday but as some of my friends pointed that it is too easy to get carried away there and it is just waste of time. So I again made up my mind not to spend too much time on fb. May be once in 2 days are enough. I really need to get my mind focussed and motivated. There is so much noise out there. I completely stopped watching TV and reading newspaper and I must say it is one of the best thing I did this year. Whatever happening in the world doesnt really bother me much rather at this point of time I need to get my life in order and give all my energy to that.

I am juggling between tasks and so much work that I feel tired now. I was not admitting it but I am also human being and I too get tired. Any form of physical, mental or emotional activity sucks our energy and we need time to refuel. I am trying hard to get things in order so that I can plan things better and find time to rest but it is hard. Either I am in front of computer or traveling to meet clients for work or doing stuff. 7 days a week I am on my toes, which is good but I am not really getting things done. Most of my projects are getting delayed and the quality of my work is going down. I don't like that to happen for long.

I was recently blessed with a baby girl, she is beautiful little baby and I just love holding her in my arms and hugging her. Probably the best thing in life. I just love to thought of carrying her in my arm. Life does change when you become parent. I really need to work extra hard now.

One thing I hate these days is not being able to get up at 4. I feel shameful. I do get up to turn off the alarm clock but just couldnt gather the energy to get out of the bed. May be I am just working to hard that my body demands the sleep or may be it is the winters and cold weather. In any case I need to re-thing and change some stuff to get back to my usual schedule. Last month I got irregular with gym but now I am going to gym regularly. I am probably in the best shape of my life right now and I feel proud. I currently weight 67Kgs, a bit under weight but my body is in good shape and I lost lot of extra fat that accumulated on my body. I am not realy taking enough diet these days because I am always running around and missing lunch but thats how it is. I try my best in every way to do things right as much as possible.

About work, well I am still working full time but as my team is global and I really dont need to go to office so I am cool with that. I am working 100% from home these days, but I really want to get rid of my job as soon as possible. It is going to be a big decision, though I am running decent money from sparxsys, my company but the income is not steady all the time but I am sure things are good now. Right now I may possibly get enough work to survive 1 year which is good thing. I was looking for office space recently as I am thinking of increasing my team as it is tough to work from home as a team. We need to have a place where everyone get together and work. so not sure when but soon we may move to some office. It will add extra burden but thats the price we need to pay to grow. I don't really want sparxsys to become main stream company. By September I am planning to grow our team to 10 people. Lets see how things turn out. I am sure 2013 is going to be good for me. Lot of new and existing projects may come in next few weeks and I am really excited, though sometimes I worry how will I manage so much work. I am not good in delegating work to other team members, which I need to learn as I can't really do everything on my own.

One thing I realized in life is that I worry too much. Can't help it but I need to control my feelings and specially my anger. Lot of things frustrate me but thats how life goes on. Ups and downs are part of life and I need to learn to cope with it. I really need to end this year on a good note and for the next few days I really want to follow my plans and daily schedule so that when I start 2013 I am in a good pace.

Feeling tired writing now and it is getting late too. So stopping here. Bye.

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